No, it wasn’t always this way.
I tried to be the popular kid. I wore a ton of make-up, dressed in sexy clothes, and talked trash.
Fish out of water.
I was trying to fit in but not exactly succeeding.
You know why? Because people can sense fakeness a mile away. Or is it that they can see through pretense to the desperation underneath?
The worst is that you know.
Once this realization hits, the more sensitive ones backpedal and try to turn a new leaf. But not the diehard ones, who continue living, selling, and perpetuating lies - for a pretty penny, perhaps?
I guess maintaining the illusion of ‘success’ is everything.
I wouldn't say I liked acting like someone I wasn’t. I love my space, the company of my thoughts, nature, books, and cats.
Then why?
Try asking that to an insecure young person.
I’m no stranger to attention. But sometimes appearances can be misleading. Some fall for the aesthetics but can’t correlate that to an extremely shy, introverted nature. Or a keen IQ, for that matter.
Enter Medium, a popular blogging platform.
I share my vulnerabilities there; I let my personality come across through my words.
“Authenticity is messy and the most beautiful aspect in life,” — Ellie Jacobson
I am happy being me.
Recently, I adopted two closing publications on Medium
🎈One is the Good Vibes Club for everything joyful and positive.
🎈The other is The Heritage Pub (formerly The Echoing Epiphanies) where stories about family history, traditions, and cultural identity are welcome.
Come say hi!
Thank you for reading and commenting - I appreciate you!
You've adopted two strays! That is so you Yana.
I love the honesty and sincerity of everything you write.
Have a most wonderful day
~Cheers~